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Thursday, March 31, 2005
i try
i try ..
i will try not to think of the opposite sex too much.
hahahhahaha~
forget yesterday! lets live like you never live before!
oh ya, i missed my babygirl, ant.. where art thou?
*sob*
i will try not to think of the opposite sex too much.
hahahhahaha~
forget yesterday! lets live like you never live before!
oh ya, i missed my babygirl, ant.. where art thou?
*sob*
Thursday, March 24, 2005
Post breakup
its been exactly 7 days since he went away
how do i feel now? happy? sad? both?
hah.
this may be cheesy but 'Survivor' has been my break up anthem since he was gone~
its true.
i laugh harder nowadays,
i dont have dark circles ard my eyes anymore
i am keeping up with my studies
ok so maybe that's overrated.
hur hur...
but i am working harder with my studies since he've been gone.
so what if he's got a new gf now?
its not as if its end of the world
there's more to life than having a boyfriend
yes its true i think of him and our memories every now n den..
but its ok. dont resist. after awhile, i will forget him naturally. no use pushing it too hard. my mind will heed after awhile.
i was reading my old posts at my old blog..
how silly was i to think that the relationship wud last forever.
hurrhurrr..
i learnt some new stuffs too after breaking up with him.
-never rush to fall in love
-be a realist. optimism can be tiring and unrealistic at times.
-there's always something good that cud turn out frm something bad
to all my frens who've tagged.
THANK YOU!
these are the places that i've tried to avoid:
-taking bus 98 to anywhere ( i used to take this bus alot to meet him)
-boat quay (big bird) (our biggest fight infront of the river)
-esplanade (the place where we torn together after the fite)
-esplanade bridge, overlooking fullerton hotel (place where we patched up and cried and laughed and did soul searching and hugged and slow dancing to music only we can hear)
-youth park (the place where we first meet, where he fell in love at first sight)
-tanjong pagar (the place we frequent, lots of sweet memories and harsh ones)
-orchard (the place we frequent, but how can i avoid this place?!)
-taking bus 143 home frm town (a routine we make)
-Teban gardens (good memories, long story)
-All MANGO shops ( good memories, long story)
-Cathay Cine. Movie theater (first movie together, also the place we like to watch movies at)
why? because all these places reminds me of him.. *sighh*
how do i feel now? happy? sad? both?
hah.
this may be cheesy but 'Survivor' has been my break up anthem since he was gone~
its true.
i laugh harder nowadays,
i dont have dark circles ard my eyes anymore
i am keeping up with my studies
ok so maybe that's overrated.
hur hur...
but i am working harder with my studies since he've been gone.
so what if he's got a new gf now?
its not as if its end of the world
there's more to life than having a boyfriend
yes its true i think of him and our memories every now n den..
but its ok. dont resist. after awhile, i will forget him naturally. no use pushing it too hard. my mind will heed after awhile.
i was reading my old posts at my old blog..
how silly was i to think that the relationship wud last forever.
hurrhurrr..
i learnt some new stuffs too after breaking up with him.
-never rush to fall in love
-be a realist. optimism can be tiring and unrealistic at times.
-there's always something good that cud turn out frm something bad
to all my frens who've tagged.
THANK YOU!
these are the places that i've tried to avoid:
-taking bus 98 to anywhere ( i used to take this bus alot to meet him)
-boat quay (big bird) (our biggest fight infront of the river)
-esplanade (the place where we torn together after the fite)
-esplanade bridge, overlooking fullerton hotel (place where we patched up and cried and laughed and did soul searching and hugged and slow dancing to music only we can hear)
-youth park (the place where we first meet, where he fell in love at first sight)
-tanjong pagar (the place we frequent, lots of sweet memories and harsh ones)
-orchard (the place we frequent, but how can i avoid this place?!)
-taking bus 143 home frm town (a routine we make)
-Teban gardens (good memories, long story)
-All MANGO shops ( good memories, long story)
-Cathay Cine. Movie theater (first movie together, also the place we like to watch movies at)
why? because all these places reminds me of him.. *sighh*
Friday, March 18, 2005
he-who-should-not-be-named
He-Whose-Name-Hurts-Too-Much-To-Mention is leaving me for Thailand and for this particular fashion designer named Gloria.
whaaat?
is he no more my Dada? foe real???? no shiet?
frankie J's 'obesssion' is my latest love song with him. or should i say, breakup song..
may all Glorias in the world rot in hell.
to think back, is it her fault? maybe. she knows that He-Whose-Name-Hurts-Too-Much-To-Mention is still in love with me.. so if she is not a bitch herself why would she pursue further?? she should have be a friend and console him or something and that's abt it. but noooooooooooooo... she hafta be a girlfriend and help him forget me by replacing my place...
anyway, it takes two hands to clap. if my boyfriend havent been hitting it off with her, she prolly wouldnt have wanted to go further too..maybe.. just maybe...
face it kiera. he's not yours for keeps anymore.
whaaat?
is he no more my Dada? foe real???? no shiet?
frankie J's 'obesssion' is my latest love song with him. or should i say, breakup song..
may all Glorias in the world rot in hell.
to think back, is it her fault? maybe. she knows that He-Whose-Name-Hurts-Too-Much-To-Mention is still in love with me.. so if she is not a bitch herself why would she pursue further?? she should have be a friend and console him or something and that's abt it. but noooooooooooooo... she hafta be a girlfriend and help him forget me by replacing my place...
anyway, it takes two hands to clap. if my boyfriend havent been hitting it off with her, she prolly wouldnt have wanted to go further too..maybe.. just maybe...
face it kiera. he's not yours for keeps anymore.
Thursday, March 17, 2005
Pain
Have you ever felt so down in the pits that you felt like you needed someone to talk to but you have no one whom you can actually call?
yeah there's friends.. but are they really, genuinely bothered to hear your rants?
yeah there's bestfriends... but what happens when your bestfriends is unreachable?
parents?
why not?
and so i turned to my parents to let out all my feelings... all my misery. after all they are supposed to know me best. and im glad i did what i did. my parents were really open with me and comforted me throughout my tears and hiccups.
my world came tumbling down when my friend called me up and said he saw Botak with another girl.. Holding hands.. I called him to confirm this and he admitted that he IS with his gf.. i know that we've broken up and all but i thought we're still together but with no strings attached or something since my grandma passed away last 2 weeks. he was there for me and all, sweet and concerned. but i guess i thought wrong.
suddenly all these thoughts came rushing in my mind.
"why do i mind? why do i bother?"
" i thought u dont love him anymore?"
maybe, i dont deserve someone like him. he is too good to be true. but the fact remains that he is the best boyfriend, bestfriend, partner, companion, lover, mate ever.
so i guess it all makes sense now..
no wonder he's not been answering my calls lately.
*big long sigh*
yeah there's friends.. but are they really, genuinely bothered to hear your rants?
yeah there's bestfriends... but what happens when your bestfriends is unreachable?
parents?
why not?
and so i turned to my parents to let out all my feelings... all my misery. after all they are supposed to know me best. and im glad i did what i did. my parents were really open with me and comforted me throughout my tears and hiccups.
my world came tumbling down when my friend called me up and said he saw Botak with another girl.. Holding hands.. I called him to confirm this and he admitted that he IS with his gf.. i know that we've broken up and all but i thought we're still together but with no strings attached or something since my grandma passed away last 2 weeks. he was there for me and all, sweet and concerned. but i guess i thought wrong.
suddenly all these thoughts came rushing in my mind.
"why do i mind? why do i bother?"
" i thought u dont love him anymore?"
maybe, i dont deserve someone like him. he is too good to be true. but the fact remains that he is the best boyfriend, bestfriend, partner, companion, lover, mate ever.
so i guess it all makes sense now..
no wonder he's not been answering my calls lately.
*big long sigh*
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
Lonely im so lonely,
I have nobody,
To call my own
Im so lonely, im mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
To call my own
Im so lonely,
Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got to have one good girl whose always been there like ya
Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave
I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was feenin,
so I hadda take a little ride,
back tracking ova these few years,
tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad,
cuz ever since my girl left me,
my whole left life came crashin
Im so lonely (so lonely),
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life,
after all I put u thru u still stuck around and stayed by my side,
what really hurt me is I broke ur heart,
baby you were a good girl and I had no right,
I really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody to call my own)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that
can take the things that you been through
Never thought the day would come where you
would get up and run and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be,
aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely
So lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girrll
Never thought that id be alone,
I didnt hope you'd be gone this long,
I jus want u to come home,
so stop playing girl and come on home (come on home),
baby girl I didn't mean to shout,
I want me and you to work it out,
I never wished Id everHurt my baby,
and its drivin me crazy cuz..
.Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girll
Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, (so lonely),
Mr. Lonely,
so lonely
So lonely,
so lonely,
(so lonely),
Mr. Lonely
I hope this is how my ex is feeling...
I have nobody,
To call my own
Im so lonely, im mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
To call my own
Im so lonely,
Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got to have one good girl whose always been there like ya
Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave
I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was feenin,
so I hadda take a little ride,
back tracking ova these few years,
tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad,
cuz ever since my girl left me,
my whole left life came crashin
Im so lonely (so lonely),
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life,
after all I put u thru u still stuck around and stayed by my side,
what really hurt me is I broke ur heart,
baby you were a good girl and I had no right,
I really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody to call my own)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that
can take the things that you been through
Never thought the day would come where you
would get up and run and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be,
aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely
So lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girrll
Never thought that id be alone,
I didnt hope you'd be gone this long,
I jus want u to come home,
so stop playing girl and come on home (come on home),
baby girl I didn't mean to shout,
I want me and you to work it out,
I never wished Id everHurt my baby,
and its drivin me crazy cuz..
.Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girll
Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, (so lonely),
Mr. Lonely,
so lonely
So lonely,
so lonely,
(so lonely),
Mr. Lonely
I hope this is how my ex is feeling...