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Thursday, March 17, 2005
Pain
Have you ever felt so down in the pits that you felt like you needed someone to talk to but you have no one whom you can actually call?
yeah there's friends.. but are they really, genuinely bothered to hear your rants?
yeah there's bestfriends... but what happens when your bestfriends is unreachable?
parents?
why not?
and so i turned to my parents to let out all my feelings... all my misery. after all they are supposed to know me best. and im glad i did what i did. my parents were really open with me and comforted me throughout my tears and hiccups.
my world came tumbling down when my friend called me up and said he saw Botak with another girl.. Holding hands.. I called him to confirm this and he admitted that he IS with his gf.. i know that we've broken up and all but i thought we're still together but with no strings attached or something since my grandma passed away last 2 weeks. he was there for me and all, sweet and concerned. but i guess i thought wrong.
suddenly all these thoughts came rushing in my mind.
"why do i mind? why do i bother?"
" i thought u dont love him anymore?"
maybe, i dont deserve someone like him. he is too good to be true. but the fact remains that he is the best boyfriend, bestfriend, partner, companion, lover, mate ever.
so i guess it all makes sense now..
no wonder he's not been answering my calls lately.
*big long sigh*
yeah there's friends.. but are they really, genuinely bothered to hear your rants?
yeah there's bestfriends... but what happens when your bestfriends is unreachable?
parents?
why not?
and so i turned to my parents to let out all my feelings... all my misery. after all they are supposed to know me best. and im glad i did what i did. my parents were really open with me and comforted me throughout my tears and hiccups.
my world came tumbling down when my friend called me up and said he saw Botak with another girl.. Holding hands.. I called him to confirm this and he admitted that he IS with his gf.. i know that we've broken up and all but i thought we're still together but with no strings attached or something since my grandma passed away last 2 weeks. he was there for me and all, sweet and concerned. but i guess i thought wrong.
suddenly all these thoughts came rushing in my mind.
"why do i mind? why do i bother?"
" i thought u dont love him anymore?"
maybe, i dont deserve someone like him. he is too good to be true. but the fact remains that he is the best boyfriend, bestfriend, partner, companion, lover, mate ever.
so i guess it all makes sense now..
no wonder he's not been answering my calls lately.
*big long sigh*