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Monday, February 28, 2005
i wish
i cant wait..
i cant wait for that day when i will sit akimbo in a plush songket cushion,
shyly, nervously, anxiously ..
waiting..
waiting for the man of my dreams to sit face to face with the kadhi..
the man of my dreams is clad in white, with a black songkok..
dresses to the nines,
the expressions full of anxiety..
any minute now..
any minute now, i will be married to him..
i will share my everything with him..
whats mine is his,
whats his is mine..
eternal bliss..
alhamdulillah,
when it is finally over, i will raise my hennaed hands and thank God for the blessings He's given me on this day..
and then..
and then he came to me, both of us looking so flustered with the adrenaline rushing,
tilt my chin up,
and kiss my forehead...
i will be so mesmerized...
that is how i wanna hv my akad nikah. i wish. i will feel so in love on the day i get married... i hope, im not gonna marry someone whom i dont love... God, let my wish come true..
May peace be upon you
i cant wait for that day when i will sit akimbo in a plush songket cushion,
shyly, nervously, anxiously ..
waiting..
waiting for the man of my dreams to sit face to face with the kadhi..
the man of my dreams is clad in white, with a black songkok..
dresses to the nines,
the expressions full of anxiety..
any minute now..
any minute now, i will be married to him..
i will share my everything with him..
whats mine is his,
whats his is mine..
eternal bliss..
alhamdulillah,
when it is finally over, i will raise my hennaed hands and thank God for the blessings He's given me on this day..
and then..
and then he came to me, both of us looking so flustered with the adrenaline rushing,
tilt my chin up,
and kiss my forehead...
i will be so mesmerized...
that is how i wanna hv my akad nikah. i wish. i will feel so in love on the day i get married... i hope, im not gonna marry someone whom i dont love... God, let my wish come true..
May peace be upon you
so hurt
i broke up wif him again...
i thought that this time it was for real..
but i was wrong.
life hafta move on..
if im fated to be with him...
i will.
if not.
i will not.
its my birthday today.
and it is the suckiest birthday ever.
i didnt celebrate it.
i dont see a need to anymore.
funny how it is.
cuz i usually hear ppl saying this when they're old..
but im saying this when im still 17.
gawd.
whatever.
whoever his new girl is,
i bet she cant love him like i did.
pompan tudung?? tsk tsk tsk *shakes head n walks away*
i never thot he'd go for those girls..
i thought that this time it was for real..
but i was wrong.
life hafta move on..
if im fated to be with him...
i will.
if not.
i will not.
its my birthday today.
and it is the suckiest birthday ever.
i didnt celebrate it.
i dont see a need to anymore.
funny how it is.
cuz i usually hear ppl saying this when they're old..
but im saying this when im still 17.
gawd.
whatever.
whoever his new girl is,
i bet she cant love him like i did.
pompan tudung?? tsk tsk tsk *shakes head n walks away*
i never thot he'd go for those girls..
Sunday, February 20, 2005
Reunited
After a long hiatus, im finally back again with the love of my life. it touched me deep inside that he's still willing to accept me back after all the mischief that i've done throughout my hiatus. his sincerity n loyalty is immortal. even in a hundred years, i'll never be able to find a man as good as him. i wont say his perfect. maybe to u he's not. but what matters is that is, to me.. he's proved that he IS different. he's not like those guys i've wasted all my adolescent time on. he's willing to see through all my thick makeup and childish behaviours. and now.. more than ever, im sure that he is THE ONE that i've waited for so long.. though this relationship has lots of obstacles, i am willing to overcome it with him. he have sacrificed his all for me.. and now, its my turn.
Thursday, February 17, 2005
..........
lust in life will lead u to problems. believe me.
Friday, February 11, 2005
Ode to Violentines Day
Valentine's Day is meant for those in love.
But what goes for those who's NOT in love?
Are we suppose to find a partner just to fit the like the rest them other ppl?
And for what?
So that we'll feel better? so that we'll fit in? so that we dont appear like some pathetic loner?
Being single is humane too.
Valentine's day shouldn't be a day where u show off those flowers u got from your partner
Or that big stuffed teddy your partner gave or won for u
Seeing couple's holding hands, smooching on the escalator, making out in the parks..
Or in the OPEN as we're more liberalized now,
Aint use to be a problem to me
Cuz i used to be like one of them
But now that im single
It irks me to see this ppl smooching every once in a while
And using baby talk
Everytime its 14 of February
I will usually be blinded by the glow.
The glow u can see in every girl's face carrying a bouquet of flowers.
I am not jealous.
Nor am i pathetic
Neither am i saying this cuz i dont have a partner for valentines day.
I am just expressing my views on the day where all couple's go crazy for flowers, chocs. n teddies.
I shall now baptise 14 feb as, VIOLENTINE'S DAY
So HAPPY VIOLENTINE'S DAY to one and all.
"Hearts and roses and kisses galore...
What the hell is that stuff for?
People get mushy and start acting queer
It's definitely the most annoying day of the year.
This day needs to get the hell over with and pass.
Before I shove a dozen roses up Cupid's ass.
I 'll spend the day so drunk I can't speak
And wear all black for the rest of the week.
Guys act all sweet but soon it will fade
For all they are doing is trying to get laid.
The arrow cupid shot at me must not have hit,
Because I think love is a bunch of SHIT.
So there's my story...
what can I say
Love bites ass... SCREW VALENTINE'S DAY!"
But what goes for those who's NOT in love?
Are we suppose to find a partner just to fit the like the rest them other ppl?
And for what?
So that we'll feel better? so that we'll fit in? so that we dont appear like some pathetic loner?
Being single is humane too.
Valentine's day shouldn't be a day where u show off those flowers u got from your partner
Or that big stuffed teddy your partner gave or won for u
Seeing couple's holding hands, smooching on the escalator, making out in the parks..
Or in the OPEN as we're more liberalized now,
Aint use to be a problem to me
Cuz i used to be like one of them
But now that im single
It irks me to see this ppl smooching every once in a while
And using baby talk
Everytime its 14 of February
I will usually be blinded by the glow.
The glow u can see in every girl's face carrying a bouquet of flowers.
I am not jealous.
Nor am i pathetic
Neither am i saying this cuz i dont have a partner for valentines day.
I am just expressing my views on the day where all couple's go crazy for flowers, chocs. n teddies.
I shall now baptise 14 feb as, VIOLENTINE'S DAY
So HAPPY VIOLENTINE'S DAY to one and all.
"Hearts and roses and kisses galore...
What the hell is that stuff for?
People get mushy and start acting queer
It's definitely the most annoying day of the year.
This day needs to get the hell over with and pass.
Before I shove a dozen roses up Cupid's ass.
I 'll spend the day so drunk I can't speak
And wear all black for the rest of the week.
Guys act all sweet but soon it will fade
For all they are doing is trying to get laid.
The arrow cupid shot at me must not have hit,
Because I think love is a bunch of SHIT.
So there's my story...
what can I say
Love bites ass... SCREW VALENTINE'S DAY!"
Friday, February 04, 2005
Singapore Poly OpenhOuse
we went to the SP open house juz now.. n.. well.. geez. it was BOOO-RINGG..
tOok some pics on my digi on the way.. lol. dun laff..
ok i feel so lesbian rite now. hahahaha
ok here's another one.
took lotsa NJ's pics.. lol.
here's one of us after so tired walking around like an over-worked mice, looking for the foodcourt
me n NJ's dirty lil shoes.. LOL.
and oh yeah, i recently removed my tattoo and it hurts like mad.
dats my burnt mark.. recovering...
LOL.
moral of the story, think twice before doing something stupid. yes, those things dat u think arent stupid at that time, WILL be stupid after some time.. LOL.
and dis is me in my room, excuse my dark circles.. i've not been having peaceful sleep.
here's another one of me...
yes, i purposely posed like dat.. LOL.
that flower u kept on noticing on my hair.. costs me 7 bucks frm forever 21. for a dried flower?! LOL.
i bought it anyhoos, cuz i loved it. there's only 1 left, in a shade of black.. bugger.
tOok some pics on my digi on the way.. lol. dun laff..
ok i feel so lesbian rite now. hahahaha
ok here's another one.
took lotsa NJ's pics.. lol.
here's one of us after so tired walking around like an over-worked mice, looking for the foodcourt
me n NJ's dirty lil shoes.. LOL.
and oh yeah, i recently removed my tattoo and it hurts like mad.
dats my burnt mark.. recovering...
LOL.
moral of the story, think twice before doing something stupid. yes, those things dat u think arent stupid at that time, WILL be stupid after some time.. LOL.
and dis is me in my room, excuse my dark circles.. i've not been having peaceful sleep.
here's another one of me...
yes, i purposely posed like dat.. LOL.
that flower u kept on noticing on my hair.. costs me 7 bucks frm forever 21. for a dried flower?! LOL.
i bought it anyhoos, cuz i loved it. there's only 1 left, in a shade of black.. bugger.
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
my secret love
Boy ur so hard to believe
Just a friend
Thats all Ive ever been to you
Oh just a girl
Who wants to be the center of your world
But I aint got much to offer
But my heart and soul
And I guess thats not enough
For you to notice me
Im just a girl
And I guess thats all Ill ever be to you
To you
I try to smile when I see other girls with you
Acting like everything is ok
But ohh
You dont know how it feels to be so in love
With someone who doesnt even know
My secret love
In my dreams
I see us both together constantly
Why cant you see
This love thats here for you inside of me
Ohhh
What do I have to do
For you to notice this
You look at her with love
With me its just friendship
Im just your girl
And I guess thats all Ill ever be to you
To you
What do you see in her
You dont see in me (dont see in me)
Boy youre so hard to believe
Why do you show her love
But theres none for me
Boy you dont make sense to me
Cause I dont have much to offer
But my heart and soul
And I guess thats not enough
For you to notice me
Im just your girl
And I guess thats all ill ever be to you
To you
I try to smile when I see other girls with you
Acting like everything is ok (everything aint ok)
But ohh
you dont know how it feels to be so in love (so in love with you baby)
With someone who doesnt even know
My secret love
Boy youre so hard to believe...
Just a friend
Thats all Ive ever been to you
Oh just a girl
Who wants to be the center of your world
But I aint got much to offer
But my heart and soul
And I guess thats not enough
For you to notice me
Im just a girl
And I guess thats all Ill ever be to you
To you
I try to smile when I see other girls with you
Acting like everything is ok
But ohh
You dont know how it feels to be so in love
With someone who doesnt even know
My secret love
In my dreams
I see us both together constantly
Why cant you see
This love thats here for you inside of me
Ohhh
What do I have to do
For you to notice this
You look at her with love
With me its just friendship
Im just your girl
And I guess thats all Ill ever be to you
To you
What do you see in her
You dont see in me (dont see in me)
Boy youre so hard to believe
Why do you show her love
But theres none for me
Boy you dont make sense to me
Cause I dont have much to offer
But my heart and soul
And I guess thats not enough
For you to notice me
Im just your girl
And I guess thats all ill ever be to you
To you
I try to smile when I see other girls with you
Acting like everything is ok (everything aint ok)
But ohh
you dont know how it feels to be so in love (so in love with you baby)
With someone who doesnt even know
My secret love
Boy youre so hard to believe...