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Monday, April 25, 2005
Hahaha
my room is such a WreCk!!!!!!!!!! with a capital W!! damn. i wish i have a maid. i knowwwwwwww... im lazyyyyyyyyy.. damn it. i cant believe how a girl's room could look like dat.
u wanna see my wreCked room?
hahahhahaha
scroll.
i know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its sooo freakin' messy rite?!
i shall put put up a 'before' and 'after' pic la. an 'after' pic will be put up soon. sooooon.. when i hv gotten ard to clean it up.
anyway, dis is another part of my room. i call it my wall of rubbish. lol.
there used to be a sketch of me and my dada, drawn by Mary Anne Jay Hopkins on the left hand side of the big baby pic. but i gave it away to him when he told me dat he's 'leaving' for Thailand. so i thought i'd give him dat to remember us by... so foolish of me. anyway that sketch on the baby pic's right is drawn by my ex classmate Gegerl on 2003. i edited it myself. so somehow it looks retarded. originally, it looks really good and professional though!
here's a pic of a very cute ornament given to me by miss MARY ANNE JAY HOPKINS. its sooooooooooooo cute. and soft. its in a shape of the letter 'a'. which is the 1st alphabet of my name. gosh. its suppose to be my VERY belated birthday present. LOL. cute aint it? HANDMADE OK! i love it so much gurl~ thankies!!
u wanna see my wreCked room?
hahahhahaha
scroll.
i know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its sooo freakin' messy rite?!
i shall put put up a 'before' and 'after' pic la. an 'after' pic will be put up soon. sooooon.. when i hv gotten ard to clean it up.
anyway, dis is another part of my room. i call it my wall of rubbish. lol.
there used to be a sketch of me and my dada, drawn by Mary Anne Jay Hopkins on the left hand side of the big baby pic. but i gave it away to him when he told me dat he's 'leaving' for Thailand. so i thought i'd give him dat to remember us by... so foolish of me. anyway that sketch on the baby pic's right is drawn by my ex classmate Gegerl on 2003. i edited it myself. so somehow it looks retarded. originally, it looks really good and professional though!
here's a pic of a very cute ornament given to me by miss MARY ANNE JAY HOPKINS. its sooooooooooooo cute. and soft. its in a shape of the letter 'a'. which is the 1st alphabet of my name. gosh. its suppose to be my VERY belated birthday present. LOL. cute aint it? HANDMADE OK! i love it so much gurl~ thankies!!
Saturday, April 23, 2005
Cold
i hv a cold. sob sob..
went out wif my classmates to celebrate shanna's birthday. at bugis. ate. walk. laugh. snap pics. it was hilarious. hahhaa.. its a pity somebody had to go home so quick to search for her a lil' lamb. *hint hint* haha..
bought murtabak for my family. frm ZamZam. its so idotically delicious~ den went to popular at jurong east to buy some stupid stationery and a big photo album. now my photos are more organized! after dat, me farhan and ridzwan sat on the stony steps of the intchg and talk. i mean realllly talk. i finally realize that farhan do actually have a brain. we talked some serious stuffs. and shit.
when i reach home. my throat hurts so much. and no. i dint do any blowjobs dat resulted the pain. dammit. u ppl?! anyway, my fren told me dat i hv the symptoms of a cold. dammit. i nw hv to breathe frm my mouth. urggggggggh.
soo long.
went out wif my classmates to celebrate shanna's birthday. at bugis. ate. walk. laugh. snap pics. it was hilarious. hahhaa.. its a pity somebody had to go home so quick to search for her a lil' lamb. *hint hint* haha..
bought murtabak for my family. frm ZamZam. its so idotically delicious~ den went to popular at jurong east to buy some stupid stationery and a big photo album. now my photos are more organized! after dat, me farhan and ridzwan sat on the stony steps of the intchg and talk. i mean realllly talk. i finally realize that farhan do actually have a brain. we talked some serious stuffs. and shit.
when i reach home. my throat hurts so much. and no. i dint do any blowjobs dat resulted the pain. dammit. u ppl?! anyway, my fren told me dat i hv the symptoms of a cold. dammit. i nw hv to breathe frm my mouth. urggggggggh.
soo long.
Sunday, April 17, 2005
Come back.. Come back..
when you left i lost a part of me..
even though he lied. it doesnt make me love him any lesser. im so lonely. i lost all happiness i had. im trying to keep it together.. but im falling apart.
dada. im so freakin sorrie. i need. not want. you back.
okie. i sound so desperate after typing dat down. but believe me dear friends, love make you do crazy things.
even though he lied. it doesnt make me love him any lesser. im so lonely. i lost all happiness i had. im trying to keep it together.. but im falling apart.
dada. im so freakin sorrie. i need. not want. you back.
okie. i sound so desperate after typing dat down. but believe me dear friends, love make you do crazy things.
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
Amateurish Melancholic Thoughts. Sole copyright belongs to me.
[Thought 1]
The day is rainy, where are you now baby?
You are like the raindrops to my seed
With you around, i blossom and grow so beautifully
Everything was so perfect, why must you hurt me deep?
Thou shall know that she cant love you
She cant understand you like i can
Will you ever understand that you've been hurting me boo?
I remember you telling me that i was sweet
Have i changed now? Has sugar turns to vile?
Have you changed your flava now that's why you fleet?
Waiting for you wasn't even a tad worthwhile
You went out with Elise,
Infront of me u kissed her,
When you know i was watching,
You continued and there goes my heart sinking
Darling its so hard living life without you
You touched me deep inside i be wanting to cry
I still cant get over you, i may be a fool
Thinking that if we're not meant to be
Then give me back my virginity!
owhkay. dat last part was to make the whole thing meaningful and rhyme.
some lines are extracted frm famous lyrics.
[Thought 2]
I walked down the alley
My pupose was to get a table to rest my feet
But greeted me was the sight that
Was enough to make
My heart stop beating
My insides twirling
My face flushing
My head dizzy
And my limbs knobbly
To meet you again, i never have dreamt
The object of my obsession
The ecstasy to my life
The reason to the emptiness in my soul
To see you, im shy
To talk to you, im afraid
To touch you, i dare not
And then it happened, my greatest fear and nightmare
Sitting beside you was your bonita
Breaking down, i feel like
Running away, i feel like
But sitting still was all i did
Plastering a look so plastic
Disguising my vulnerability
Masquerading my feelings
But the feelings not mutual
I know he was honest
He honestly dislike me
And the past had remain as it is
The past...
The past that i so want to rewind back to
As he was leaving
With his bonita in tow
I hope he could hear my reckless muffled whisper
"I miss you.."
A wonder it was how 1 second lasts so long
In which i could still smell his familiar scent
A wonder it was how close we were
But seemed a world apart in reality
And then he was past me.
Again. PAST.
As i turned around,
Once again all i saw was a familiar picture
That still haunts me till today
The frame of his familiar broad shoulders
Walking away from me
And never stopping...
Here's to our 2nd yr Death Anniversary..
The day in which our love died.
In a tragic love story..
done on 11/7/04
10.50pm
fyi, "The alley" is a place behind the National Youth Council.
The day is rainy, where are you now baby?
You are like the raindrops to my seed
With you around, i blossom and grow so beautifully
Everything was so perfect, why must you hurt me deep?
Thou shall know that she cant love you
She cant understand you like i can
Will you ever understand that you've been hurting me boo?
I remember you telling me that i was sweet
Have i changed now? Has sugar turns to vile?
Have you changed your flava now that's why you fleet?
Waiting for you wasn't even a tad worthwhile
You went out with Elise,
Infront of me u kissed her,
When you know i was watching,
You continued and there goes my heart sinking
Darling its so hard living life without you
You touched me deep inside i be wanting to cry
I still cant get over you, i may be a fool
Thinking that if we're not meant to be
Then give me back my virginity!
owhkay. dat last part was to make the whole thing meaningful and rhyme.
some lines are extracted frm famous lyrics.
[Thought 2]
I walked down the alley
My pupose was to get a table to rest my feet
But greeted me was the sight that
Was enough to make
My heart stop beating
My insides twirling
My face flushing
My head dizzy
And my limbs knobbly
To meet you again, i never have dreamt
The object of my obsession
The ecstasy to my life
The reason to the emptiness in my soul
To see you, im shy
To talk to you, im afraid
To touch you, i dare not
And then it happened, my greatest fear and nightmare
Sitting beside you was your bonita
Breaking down, i feel like
Running away, i feel like
But sitting still was all i did
Plastering a look so plastic
Disguising my vulnerability
Masquerading my feelings
But the feelings not mutual
I know he was honest
He honestly dislike me
And the past had remain as it is
The past...
The past that i so want to rewind back to
As he was leaving
With his bonita in tow
I hope he could hear my reckless muffled whisper
"I miss you.."
A wonder it was how 1 second lasts so long
In which i could still smell his familiar scent
A wonder it was how close we were
But seemed a world apart in reality
And then he was past me.
Again. PAST.
As i turned around,
Once again all i saw was a familiar picture
That still haunts me till today
The frame of his familiar broad shoulders
Walking away from me
And never stopping...
Here's to our 2nd yr Death Anniversary..
The day in which our love died.
In a tragic love story..
done on 11/7/04
10.50pm
fyi, "The alley" is a place behind the National Youth Council.